Humbled Prayer

It's really happening.  There's a baby.  A little circle, a baby the size of a sweet pea, showed up on the ultrasound screen last Thursday.  It was beautiful.  And I finally relaxed.

Before the ultrasound I kept alternating between being nervous that nothing would show up on the screen or wondering if we were having twins.  We knew, after Femara and an ultrasound, that I had two follicles in June.  Yet there's just one baby.  DH said he was a little disappointed that we weren't having twins, but I felt such relief to just see a baby. Also, I couldn't help but think how much easier it will be to have one baby at a time instead of two. To think, it took two follicles to get one baby. We're just so grateful.

The only thing tempering my excitement is the fact that there are so many others still waiting for their miracle baby.  You might be where I was - sure that a pregnancy is out of reach and not even able to imagine yourself picking out maternity clothes or ever feeling a baby kick.  If that's you, please don't give up hope.  Throughout this tough journey, I was comforted by the fact that I would be a mom somehow - through a pregnancy or adoption - although neither route was easy.  Yet it will be worth it all.  Someday.

Our little sweet pea:

God, thank you.  I can't thank you enough lately.  Please protect this little one and help the baby's growth and development. Help me to be a good mom, even now, as I'm trying to take care in what I eat and how much I rest. And please, please be with all the women in the IF community who are still waiting. God, the waiting is so hard. Hoping can be exhausting. Give them strength today, God, please.