Friday, June 11, 2010

Bittersweet

Change: I don't like it. I'm not good at it.

That can include trying new things. Take fifth grade and the after-school basketball program. When the day came, my mom had to open the gym door and shove me inside.

Leaving for college: I cried. Graduating from college to return home: I cried.

Last week at my mom's retirement party, I teared up. So did she. She's a music teacher. An exceptional one. It was always apparent that her talents and her calling lined up with that career.

At work, we're currently making some changes that affect my job. They'll be improvements, but it's unsettling.

Now to the hardest change: My brother-in-law has just accepted a job in another state. About 9 hours away. I am glad that it will help his career. And yes, it has become a common occurrence for family and friends to leave Michigan looking for work. But to have my sister leave? My adorable 21-month-old nephew? I've seen him almost every week since he was born. And my sister has another baby on the way.

It was just after my nephew was born that my sister and I (along with our husbands, of course) both bought homes only 45 minutes apart. We talk on the phone every day. We see each other all the time. More than just a best friend and confidant, she's that person who knows me as well as I know myself - and loves me anyway.

I'd do anything for my sister. I guess that means being supportive right now. Prayers greatly appreciated. 

God, this hurts. Yes, I want the best for them. But couldn't you have provided a job for him here? Or can you please transfer him back at some point? God, I'm just sad, really, not mad. Please take care of them there. They'll need your help. We'll need your help here too. 

6 comments:

  1. I can tell how wonderful your relationship with your sister is. I have two sisters, and one of them is moving way north this summer. I will miss her so much, but she's moving to be closer to her fiance, and I am excited for the opportunities she will have there. My other sister and I are already making plans to go visit her. Maybe you could do the same, to give you something to look forward to? Hoping this hurt heals soon (hug)

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  2. Ugh. So sorry. That is NOT fun. My little brother moved 5 hours away and I was so upset! I constantly, secretly (not so secretly) wish he would move back. I'll be thinking about you, and maybe it'll only be temporary. I think it's ok to wish that. ;)

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  3. Oh Hannah I'm sorry. My closest cousin, who is like a sister to me, lives in VA at the moment. Her husband is in the navy and I cried SO HARD when she got married and moved away. She is my best friend, she knows me better than I know myself and when she got pregnant and had her daughter it was even harder.
    As much as I knew she had to, I was very lonely and some days I still cry because I just want her here with me on my very worst days.
    Praying for you!

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  4. It's hard to be away from family, especially cute nieces and nephews. I hope that your relationship with your sister will only continue to get stronger!

    Have a great weekend.

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  5. sorry, that will be tough I'm sure for both of you.

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  6. Take care - I'll be praying for you. Change is a normal course of life. Yes, it's very tough sometimes...but, this new change may lead to another door opening - and - I bet one day, you'll live near each other again! Take care!

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